qil.

230 days

Assalamualaikum

hey, there ( ﾟ▽ﾟ)/
how are you?
are you doing fine?
hopefully everything goes well, insyaAllah

perhaps at this time,
you've already walked far away from me
and maybe you have forget about me
that's okay

if you are happened to read this by any chance

I just wanna say

I am sorry

because after 230 days since that day
only now...
I have a courage to take a FEW steps away
from us and from you as well

yes, just a few
itu je yang saya mampu buat masa sekarang

I do admit sometimes our memories keep playing in my head
whenever I accidentally thinking about you
as I still bring you wherever I go

it is really sad and hard for me
but I have to do this

and
what hurts me the most is
when I realised that you will never look at me again in the same way I look at you
because I have to accept the fact that certain things will never go back to how it used to be

I am sorry that I could not stay any longer
I am so tired

please do not get me wrong
I am not giving up on you, but I just have had enough
I am so exhausted, really

I'm just going with the flow and have faith
I trust Allah with all my heart and always remember
that His plan are according to His infinite wisdom
He knows what is best for you and me

I am strongly believe, if we are meant to be together
one fine day, surely we will meet again and accept everything
without hesitates but with smile and grateful
InsyaAllah

but for the time being,
maybe this is not the right time, I don't know
Wallahu'alam

so...
I leave you in the care of Allah
as nothing is lost that in His care

I pray that Allah gives you everything and more
I pray for you to be protected and for you to be happy
I pray that no one ever breaks your heart
I pray you find the person you could not see in me -- much more better than me
I pray you will have a pious wife(ives) in the future so that she(they) can be a good mother(s) of your future children

may your choices, reflect your hopes, not your fears
I wish the best for you and nothing less
oh ya, Happy New Year, SH☺️

so long,
Assalamualaikum ☺️

ۗإِنَّ ٱلْأَمْرَ كُلَّهُۥ لِلَّهِ
"Indeed, the matter belongs completely to Allah"
[3:154]